Last week I was back to living in my own apartment. It was strange because I've been a lot less productive than I wanted. Sure, I worked more than I was supposed to, but I also kept falling asleep at the foot of my bed and waking up at the absolute last minute to get to work.
One of the things I wanted this year is to come up with a routine that's more productive so I can have an actual uploading schedule. I'm having a hard time following through with that though.
It's difficult to reconcile th fact that my writing should be a full time job, but I also have a full time job at the same time. And I also get distracted easily. I'll watch a show while I eat dinner and then instead of writing I'll watch another episode, and another episode, until it's too late and I have to go to sleep. I have very little self control. And every time I do something like that I feel bad after.
I don't have it in me to be a productive person with only three hours of sleep in my system anymore. It's a very sad realization.
Another thing I want to change is the fact that I haven't been reading enough. A lot of the books I've suggested in my Sunday Reading posts are books I had already read. When I started to do these posts it's because I wanted to read one book a week and do a little review of it afterwards. That's not what happened.
I've always had two speeds when it comes to reading: binge reading or not reading at all. I really need to find a balance between that. Basically I need to accept the fact that once again, I can't pull all-nighters binge-reading entire series anymore.
Are you guys the same with reading? It feels like I was such a better reader when I was younger.
I need to come up to a more livable way of juggling between working, writing and reading, while also allowing myself to be a little bit lazy, so that when I do let myself be lazy, I don't actually feel bad about it.
So here it is. I want to read more books, upload more consistently, finish more stories, and just generally waste less time.
Do you guys also struggle with establishing a schedule for yourselves? Especially with classes being online and everything being derailed, I can't be the only one struggling with my routine.
I'll leave you alone now, I have a pile of books I need to read, a hundred Word files open I need to work on and I need to do that sleeping thing I appear to need more of now.